Hi, I really need genuine suggestions on my situation. maku covid mundhu pelli ayindhi. I was 21 when I got married. It was an arranged marriage. Maa engagement ki pelli ki 6 months gap undhi. Nenu India lo and naa husband usa lo. Roju calls maatladukune vallam. Appude edho silly reasons ki 2 times godava padadu. I didn't know it was a red flag then. I was very immature. Then maa pelli ayindhi and nenu usa vachanu. He is not into intimacy and sometimes I thought he might be impotent.

Tarvata edhoka chinna chinna vishayalaki godava pettukuni divorce istha ani bedirinchevadu. Anumaaninchevadu. Naa social media antha check chesadu. And godava ayinappudu nenu just maa parents kosam pelli chesukunna. nuvvu ante istam ledhu anevadu. It hurts me alot and I can never forget it. Intlo nunchi bayataki velpomanevadu. Eppudu future plan discussion vachina, nee life needhi. naa life naadhi antadu. Ippati varaku mana life an okkasari kuda analedhu. Nenu work chesthunna. Vaadi business support cheyyataniki 2cr kuda icha. Siggu lekunda money teesukuni. Edho nannu uddharisthuna feeling lo untadu.

Then kids gurinchi intlo pressure. Naaku vaadi family tho asalu issue eh ledhu. Maaku eh godava aina naa in-laws ki call chesi cheppestha. They try to pacify me. Valla koduku thappu ani telsina vallu em cheyalekapothunnaru. Naa parents ki cheppi, vallani badhapettalenu. Kid puttaka maarathadu anevaru. Then I got pregnant. Adhi kuda naa force valle. Pregnancy lo kuda godave. Everyday night edchedanni. We have a beautiful kid. Naa badha enti ante, that baby will not be raised in a happy family. Edaina ladies problem unte, andari girls ki anthe kada, bharinchu anattu maatladathadu. Veediki friends undaru, oka fun undadhu, em undadhu. Pedha moodist. I think he needs therapy. Valla parents ki ila chepthe, they dint like the idea.

Society vaadiki pichi anukuntundhi antaru. Vaaditho undi undi. nenu kuda harsh ga behave cheyatam start chesthunnanu. I'm not liking myself. Inka ippudu vaaditho godava ayinappudu, nenu Kuda harsh ga maatladuthu vaadini hurt cheyataniki chusthunna. And sometimes I make him feel really really bad with my words. I'm not liking myself. I had suicidal thoughts too. Ivi anni kuda gurthu unchukuni prathi godava lo e topics anni raise chesthadu Appudu ila annav ala annav ani antadu.

Conclusion enti ante naa husband oka selfish and stubborn fellow with no empathy towards me. I don't want my kid to turn out like him. Vaadila unte nenu na kid ki pelli kuda cheyyanu. I dont want another girl to suffer like me. Divorce is not an option. I can't hurt our families. Also I dont want my kid to be raised in a broken marriage. My highest priority is my kid. And I give a damn about my husband. How do I deal with my situation?

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