I Broke Up… But Still Keep Going Back: Masters Student Confused About Love, Lust & Marriage

I am 24f, currently in my last semester Really masters ki rakamundu I loved my life and it's so peaceful. Ikadiki ochaka first semester lo okadu propose chesadu, he's from different state bane untadu and moreover baga chaduvuthadu so everything will be good easy ga job ostadi dabbulu untayi ani accept chesesa. Less than 3 months godavalu start iyayi like he has his priorities and other things then why the fuck he proposed me??? ldhi antha oka part ithe he has more lust he use to call me to his room and ended up having sex many times he is tall and bulky he have a huge D asalu every time we are having sex I feel it in my stomach and every session is amazing and good orgasm. but things changed so Inka idhi workout avvatle ani breakup iyam. 2-3 months asala matladakola and one day suddenly he texted like let's patch up again first I was like l'm not ok but next day
I called him and said ok then we met in his room and did same thing again. Idhi Ela indi ante godava pettukoni matladatla and whenever he wants xes he's texting and I don't know why even antha telsina I'm going to meet him don't know the reason why I keep doing it. I don't know why ah abbayi nundi msg oste I'm easily forgetting and going to his room like I am a victim of his black magic. Now l'm about to complete my master's and my parents are looking for matches. So do I need to confess all this to my husband or do I need to hide. Only doubt in my mind is what if he texts after my marriage and if I go and chesta my husband I'm unable to decide! Need some suggestions please